Author Archives: deconstructingdoctor
digging ditches
I inhaled deeply and out came the contents of the day in one long breath. The computers, the patients, the staff, the new EMR system. All of the problems. No solutions. So much frustration. I just want to quit! I … Continue reading →
Discomfort Zone
The following blogpost first appeared on my friend Bonnie’s blog called edsazebra. Bonnie is such an amazing spirit, filled with joy and encouragement for others. She writes about her journey with an incredibly rare disorder called Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome. I’m doing a … Continue reading →
Wicker for better living
You know what I’ve realized? Life is not like a Pottery Barn Catalog. Life isn’t all neatly tucked away in cute little wicker baskets on top of shelves. It’s not neatly filed in boxes and catalogued with metal tag holders. … Continue reading →
Salad Spinner
First, let me preface this post by giving full disclosure: cooking is not my strongest suit. I pretty much stink at it. One of my friends from high school and one that I’ve kept in touch with on Facebook recommended … Continue reading →
Lost and Found
I am obsessed with bottles. Not because I like bottles all that much, it’s because I like to put things in them. I collect do-dads, trinkets, little bits of shiny things, mostly broken, mostly discarded and I put them in … Continue reading →
Greater Good
Talking or writing about my faith always gives me a little uncomfortable feeling. I can talk to my family, children, and close friends about it, but putting it out into the world to be ridiculed is almost unbearable. There are … Continue reading →
Gender Offender
I went to a conference last week. Alone. No kids. No husband. No friends. Just me. 5 days in a hotel room. 5 days to navigate an alien city all by myself. 5 days to find peace and calm in … Continue reading →
Push Pull
There is this phenomenon that I would like to discuss. Does this happen to any of you? Of course it does. If you share a bed with another human being, this has happened. It is happening now all over the … Continue reading →
Thy Rod and Thy Staff
Sometimes, before I walk into a room with certain patients, I take a deep cleansing breath and whisper, Lord, give me strength. I just know what’s waiting for me on the other side. History repeats itself over and over. I … Continue reading →
Too Much
My mom died on July 7th 2016. My birthday was July 26th and my wedding anniversary was July 28th. On my mom’s desk in her room, sat two cards, one addressed to me and one addressed to me and my … Continue reading →


